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Thursday, July 26, 2012

Where Im at ,at this moment...

     I have become a RAW natural born artist of Hollywood !

     Greetings & Salutations ! Since the last I left you , I had been doing my first art show , and now Im doing my second art show with an organization called RAW natural born artists . They have these all across the nation , theres one in Chicago , New York etc. all cities nationwide. Hit the Raw linky to check out there site and submit your work , from art,painting,photography,music,performing arts , if your talent is any of these catagories , you can submit your work an if they think its the shstuff you will be a featured artists at there show. They have these shows every month.

     Honestly , I can say , I wasn't expecting my life to go from just an idea to step out of my shell heading out to a art gallery in Los Angeles , trying to do a documentary on artists of L.A. to becoming a photographer/artist in an art show a year later . Like I have said before in past blog posts , I have never really thought of myself as a photographer. Now , on my second art show , that really is a special one to me being its in Hollywood my hometown at a club I use to hang out in when I was a young hottie rocker girl back in the 80's , I realize that I AM!! Just because many may look at you like,"who are you?"," your not what you say you are , you have no experience " , is a bunch of bullshit! Excuse my language , Im just very passionate about how I feel about neysayers saying this to artists with dreams. I just want to say , I am proof that you are , who you say you are , if you believe it , and you work toward it and the work is evident , then YOU ARE AN ARTISTS !!! I am here to tell you ,those who laugh at you or snub you , just don't believe in dreams ; because anyone to tell you negative thoughts on something you love , well they have never dream't a day in there life , and I hate to say it thats most of society . We live in a world where its about what your occupation is ,how much money you have , keeping up with the Jones's , how big your house is , what kind of car you drive . None of this stuff matters to an artists with dreams . We will live in a box to fulfill the dream , we will starve for the dream .

    In conclusion to my thoughts and everything that is going on in my life ; to all artists who battle with societies thoughts on what is a REAL ARTIST . I say to you this , IM DOING IT! Bottom line . If I can do it , so CAN YOU! I didn't go to school for photography; honestly the last class I had in photography was when I was in high school , that was over 20yrs ago ! So there you go ! If you are out here in Los Angeles , please join me at this art show , it would mean alot ! We'd have a fun time . Here's a link where you can buy tickets , remember ! august 10th ! 8pm-11pm Hope to see you there!


& this linky to my RAW ARTIST PROFILE

                                           Thanks for stopping by and listening it means alot! : )

                                                                XOXO  Maryann K.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Joining Promise Tangeman on a Random Kind of Monday !

                                                                                                                              

     Greetings & Salutations ! Its a Random Kind of Monday


     Hello everyone ! Today I was surfing around the net , and saw Promise Tangeman's post on her Random Kind of Monday, so she asked us to join her and I thought , why not! I hope you'll join her on this, its really fun and spontaneous , shes a fun gal I can tell , and very talented check her blog here at this linky k ?Random Monday with Promise

     So here we go with the Random thoughts of The Maryann K :

                       I didn't know I was a photographer until now , it took being in two art gallery shows to 
                       realize it ( I kid you not ! ) LOL!

                       I just found out a couple of days ago that my father is 3yrs younger than my mom , when
                       I was always told all these years he was older than my mom , my mom was 21 when she
                       had me so you do the math ( no wonder he took off , he was 18! )

                       I realized that I want a Jeep Wrangler or Sport vehicle , Oh yes , it will be mine ! 
                       determination gets you there , I will have it ! 
    
                      I love when people like my work , its  good feeling . I like having fans of my work.

                      I don't like when its extremely hot outside , it makes me imagine Im on Mars .

                      My cat is like a dog ( everyone thinks this of there cat LOL!)

                      I met my hubby in the late 80's , we were rocker/metallers so we had the crazy rocker hair
                      the whole bit with the clothes you name it , and we met at a rock club in Hollywood he 
                      was the singer in the band that played that night .

                      I love filmmaking ! I want to make films like Rob Zombie's Devil's Rejects . yeah , I 
                      Im sick LOL!

     There it is! My randomness for this Monday ! Everyone swing over to Promises blog and join in the fun , its fun to participate in random . Have an awesome day and thanks for stopping by .


                                                     Loves,
                                      
                                        Maryann K.

                                                


                       

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Morning Pages time with Jamie Ridler !

                               Morning Pages with Jamie Ridler in July !

     Greetings & Salutations ! I decided that this month Im gonna do Morning Pages with Jamie Ridler . Since discoverying Jamies Blog about 3yrs ago , she is so nice , so sweet , her sister is so nice as well Suzi Ridler , and meeting women like these gal , it makes you realize that their are women on this planet that are really nice , which I wasn't really meeting in my life . I hermitize myself away from people , I close myself in , meeting interesting people who inspire me , give me hope , and just cheer you on is really all I need , even if I never meet them in person , although I hope to someday.

     Today I want to talk about the fine line of keeping yourself in check . What I've discovered in my own world , is that your family ain't goin' nowhere ! You can run , but you can't hide LOL! I have always struggled with my family . Since I was a little girl , I was always looked at as " The Confussed Girl ". You see , I was born in 69 , during this time alot was going on in our world. There was war and there was predjudice toward anyone who wasn't , " WHITE " . The color of my skin is not very dark , in fact , Im pretty white , but my nationality was not caucasion , Im half mexican and half thai , so it was a little difficult growin' up because the kids I grew up with in the town I  lived in at the time , were all raised to think in a predjudice way . I understood it wasn't their fault , it was how they were raised , and I understood that at an early age . A child knows when they see it very young and I saw it everytime I would meet someone at the playground or at the park , I would have a great time with a kid and when the parent saw they were playing with a child that wasn't caucasion , the parent would come over and tell their child they needed to go over here or there , and the poor kid wouldn't understand why.
     When I was a teenager , it was a little more abraisive . I remember I had moved from Hollywood/Silverlake area where I lived all my life until that point. I had just turned 13 and my parents wanted me to get a good education in a good public school , so my parents decide to buy a house in a town near Pasadena called Arcadia . I understood one thing about this town . Most of the people there were wealthy . I came from a poor side of town to a uptown world , that I didn't think I would fit in and I didn't by any means . I went to junior high , knowing no one , I remember I was such a loner for a while . I remember that , kids would start conversations with me like this : 

    Kid : " Hey so where are you from ? What school did you go to? "
    me  : " I just moved here from Los Angeles . "
   Kid  : " Oh eeew! That place smells your lucky your living here ! "
    me  : " Well it wasn't that bad . "
   Kid  : " What are you ? "
    me  : " What do you mean , I don't understand ? "
   Kid  : " You look like a beaner . Am I right ? "
    me  : " What ? What's that ? "
   Kid  : (laughs out loud )  " Your mexican right ? "
    me  : " yeah Im half . "
   Kid  : " oh god! whats the other half ? "
    me  : " The other half is thai . "
   Kid  : " Oh God! I feel sorry for you ! " laughs and ends conversation.

It was a tough road from 13-17 . Although theses kids started not to care about nationality , it was like they became their own person , so predjudice started to die down in high school . All my girlfriends were pretty much latin or asian or a girl from sweden , it was always ethnic gals , the WHITE girls wouldn't even think to be my friend , and if they did , we had a private friendship that I would respect.

     My thoughts this morning , come from the predjudice I deal with in my family . Even though I survived the harsher predjudices in life that I experienced growing up as a kid . I realized that predjudice is everywhere , whether it be race , color or creed , family I discovered is beyond predjudice most the time . I have always been an artists , and my family don't think thats a career . My grandmother , really see me as a " Hippy " She's told me before that her favorite grandkids are the one's that have the best jobs and she's even pointed out , who her favs are , and of course , Im not one of them. I think I stay away from my family because we don't have much in common and I speak my mind on politics and history , and they always get angry with me and tell me where to put it . So its rare I see any of them . I just want to live a life where I can just do my art , be the artist I choose to be , I don't need anyone to tell me their proud of me although its nice to hear , but I just want to make my art and celebrate with others who love art as well . If I can get that out of life and the people I meet , then I can have a smile on my face all the time. I love my family, but I also don't need negative vibes either.

                                                Thanks for stopping by an listening , it means alot!

                                                            MaryAnn K.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Can't Believe Im on my way !


           My first Art show with my photography/art & so much more comin' !

     Greetings and Salutations! So here it is everybody! I was so blowin' away when I walked into the art gallery and saw my photography and my artful frames . I didn't know what to expected because all this just happened so fast . I never really saw myself as a Photographer . Even though I've been a picture taker for many years , and people have always told me that I should be a photographer , Im always sayin', " Nah! I just do it for fun ! " I took myself seriously with my film work , Im very proud of myself with my film work . I can honestly say I see myself as a "Documentress ". I have always loved documentary films , so for me to be working on two documentaries at the moment , is the best feeling in my life. I thank my dear friend from high school Souixsie Hall , who saw my talent and kept pushing me to submit my work . I kept trying not to saying stuff like, " No , Im not professional , Im just a wanna-be artist." She then gave me an email and said , " Just submit something , see what happens ? " I said , " O.K. Suze I'll do it ." And well here I be , in a art gallery , thanks to Souixsie !


                   My high school friend , who believed in me Souixsie Hall .

     Its funny how you can step away from people , because you close yourself in , become a hermit because you feel that everyones just out to judge you because you believe in living artfully , and what I mean by that is , because you choose a life of selling your art . Living in the creative world . In society , well at least in the world Im in ; people don't take kindly to , " My kind ! " If Im not famous , if Im not making thousands of dollars selling my art , then . " IM NOT AN ARTIST! " Its that simple in  
" SOCIETY'S TERMS ! " Living in Los Angeles is also hard , there's lots of competition , alot of amazing talent !
 

                   My mother who was very proud of me in my endeavors

     I am not very close to my mom . As much as I would love to be , her and I have always had our differences through the years . I always remember how much she loves me , when I told her what I'd been up to , she was shocked to see that I did this . I have never really given her anything to be proud of me for  , it was nice to give a little bit of that.


    In conclusion to this chapter and off to the next chapter in this artful journey , I've learned I have to stop believeing that this is all impossible or that Im not good enough . Maybe thats how an artists always feels. The lesson Im learning , is it doesn't matter if you think your not good enough , what matters is that you tried and see where that takes you ; because if you don't try , you'll never know. Im proof of that . Look at this photo I took , my work is on a wall with other amazing artists that Im proud to be beside them , and theres people looking at my art and walking by my art , and buying my art . I had sold one of the photos there that night . What an experience to remember an my artful world has only just begun .